I'm really tired.
It's all my own fault. It's the unavoidable result of never getting to bed before midnight, spending upwards of 9 hours a day at work, and obsessively exercising 4 or 5 times a week.
I've got nobody to blame but myself.
I keep meaning to get an early night, but it doesn't happen. I never seem to leave work much before 7pm, and if I go out to the gym or something, it's rare that we will eat much before 9pm, and sometimes later. By the time I really should be thinking about going to bed, I find that I'm just not ready. I spend too much time at work to just spend all evening asleep. Books to read, posts to be written, DVDs to be watched, music to be listened to....
When I do finally get to bed, I sleep well, but I rarely dream. Certainly nothing that I can remember, anyway.
What does that say about someone? If dreaming is your subconscious mind working through issues, what does it say about you if you don't dream?
Recently I've started to get night sweats. I'll wake up in the middle of the night and realise that I'm wet through and have soaked the sheets and my pillow. I have to get up to dry myself down, get back into bed and try and to make myself comfortable. I've no idea what's causing it, although it's possible that it's related to the WT's. It's not very pleasant and I hope it stops soon.
Perhaps I'm having terrible dreams but I can't (or won't) remember them when I'm awake. Perhaps it's another reason I'm feeling tired.
I want to know what's going on in my head when I'm asleep. Come to think of it, I want to know what's going on in there when I'm awake too.
If I start dreaming, I'll be sure to let you all know so you can interpret for me.
In completely unrelated news, and in a rare foray into non-autobiographical writing (ahem), I'm working on a piece for Reader Meet Author about a guy who doesn't dream. I haven't written it yet though, so you'll have to make do with the news that I've started serialising my Nano novel over there.... also completely unautobiographical.
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